The Day I Had to Start Caring What Everyone Thinks

“Whatever happens, conduct yourselves in a manner worthy of the gospel of Christ…” Philippians 1:27

It was sort of an alternate universe to me. Not only had I prided myself for years for not giving a rip what anyone else thought about me or the things I did, sadly, it wasn’t even an act. It was as genuine and as real as I sit here today. I had no qualms about writing you off and not ever giving it another thought. Your opinion mattered little to me and I had no hesitation about telling you where you could put it. Unfortunately, that mindset followed me into my relationship with the Lord. Only I got a little bit better about hiding it, or at least gained a little tack about it anyways. Instead of saying anything, I began to only think it. I would listen. Smile. Totally make fun of you in my head, and silently decide you were an idiot. So rude, right?

One day, I felt the Lord nudging me. As if to say, “I don’t care what these people think of you, but I do care what they think of Me. This isn’t about you.” It was sort of like God had begun a softening process on my heart and life. One that has proved to be a very loooong, sometimes painful, process. It continues to be something I have to work through daily. Taking others opinions, thoughts and criticisms on my life doesn’t come natural to me. I wholeheartedly believe it’s due to being in a state of defense my entire life. When I accepted Christ, He took on all the things I had to be defensive about and He continues to show me that I don’t have to live my life on the defense… I have the freedom in Him to love without reservation and to allow others into my life. Even into the not-so-pretty parts of my life. I have the freedom to listen and not get defensive. To consider other’s thoughts, and to filter them through scripture, prayer and my own personal outlook. I have the freedom to disagree respectfully but to allow others to be heard. If we call ourselves Christians, we have an obligation to point our lives towards Christ. ALL aspects of it. Not just the ones that are comfortable for us. Philippians 1:27 says, “Whatever happens, conduct yourselves in a manner worthy of the gospel of Christ…” God is saying this. This isn’t about you. Regardless of what you think, or what you’ve been taught your entire life, this is all about Me. I have a plan. I’m sitting on the throne. I am King. I am in control. Conduct yourself in such a way that acknowledges that and points others to me. I have a plan for each of you that your minds can’t even fully comprehend. Come be a part of My story. Come let Me love you and set you free. I’m waiting.

Don’t delay. May we all walk in His freedom this day.

My ♥ today.

“God hasn’t called us to show up, but to go out.”

-Perry Noble

The Lord your God is with you, he is might to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing.

Zephaniah 3:17

 No matter whe…

No matter where I am.
No matter who I’m with.
No matter my reputation.
No matter what you think.
No matter my circumstance.
No matter my frustration.
No matter my weakness.
No matter my down fall.
No matter my status.
There You are.
“The righteous will live by faith.”

My little girl….


My little girl. On what’s left of my favorite tree. In my favorite yard. At my favorite house in my favorite town. Where my favorite memories were made.


My favorite house.


My grandaddy’s shop.


Doodle bugs.


My mom.


My favorite people ever. My Granny and Grandaddy.


Emersyn Lynne

My hope is that as I grow more into His image, I can relay that security to my daughter. I want her value to come from Him, not from tallying her accomplishments next to someone else’s. I want her to rejoice in who she is, not stress over who she isn’t.


Strive for excellence! I’ve always felt this necessary, but recently I’ve really felt the Lord pressing the issue in my heart. To me, this starts in the small things. The things others really may never know about our lives. Then that in turn flows into all the other parts of our lives. Who are we when no one is looking?

“In everything set an example by doing what is good. In your teaching so integrity, seriousness and soundness of speech that cannot be condemned, so that those who oppose you may be ashamed because they have nothing bad to say about you.” Titus 2:7
I want every part of my life to reflect Jesus. Do I have a long way to go? Yes. But consistently looking at my own life and asking Him to change the things I know I can’t on my own is where I like to hang out. I don’t want to get to the end of this thing and be sorry that there were things in my life that were just mediocre. I want excellence in all that I do!

Me, today.

If through the Spirit of God we have an unmeasurable power, why are our lives controlled by fear and insecurity?

This question caused me to stop, sit, and think. Which then led to the question, am I ineffective? Insecure? Scared? And the reality is, yes…I have the tendency to sometimes be all three. By nature I’m aggressive. I want to excel. Average isn’t good enough. In the times I’m experiencing ineffectiveness, or insecurity it’s very frustrating. And very discouraging. The more I think about it and experience it, the more I understand that He truly is strong in my weakness. I understand what it means to live by the Spirit. I’ve taken the words of Paul today and found comfort. Let him who boasts, boast in the Lord. So, this is me boasting, recognizing I am nothing and I owe Him everything. What a good day.

Note Taken…

Sometimes as I go through my journal I’m shocked at some of my thoughts. Some make me laugh, some make me sad, some I have no clue what was going through my head that day. When I put them together, it’s fun.
We are called to live in anticipation.
People change.
The smell of fall is comforting.
The fast lane isn’t fast enough.
We’re all in the process of dying.
God has given you dreams- chase them.
Wedding veils were cool in 1986.
Lack of belief is simply lack of understanding.
The least dependant you are on someone, the better!
I don’t want all the answers.
Never be intimidated.
Humans have a knack for screwing things up…..Welcome to existence.
London is beautiful.
Desperation and instability is NOT attractive, girls. Get a grip.
Hearts need a lot of time to heal.
Ministry is hard.
McDonald’s fries are the best.
The most growth I do is by listening to others.
Boldness should be a goal.
Life is one big decision.
In love is either the best, or worst place to be.
Fail. And get back up. Every time.
If you have to ask if it makes you look fat, chances are the answer is yes.
EVERYONE desires authenticity.
A changed life should move you to tears.
Obama is not the Antichrist. Everyone chill.
Finding the love of your life is an achievement. Treat it like one.
If you order from an infomercial, you’re an idiot.
Unconditional love is easy to say, but I’m finding one of the hardest things I’ll ever attempt to do.
Buy me a bag of sunflower seeds and you’re my hero.
Change brings growth.
I take the ones I love for granted. I hate this about myself. Must change.
Snuggies? Really?
Life is funny. We’re too serious about it sometimes.